New Year's Resolution Part 2

Okay, I am not really making a Resolution in this blog, but it is a carry over of self-discovery. To repeat myself, when you do true soul searching, you learn a few things about yourself. Another thing I learned about myself is that either through lack of money, or lack of intiative, there are things about myself I can't change and that is okay. What is, is.
I am about 5'5 in heighth.
My favorite color is blue.
I refuse to wear colored socks in public.
None of this is bad, or even really matters, it just is me.
But the big one is my thought patterns. I struggled in high school, like just about everyone else I have ever talked to. Not smart, not stupid, not a troublemaker, not an over-achiever, I drifted through school like a jellyfish on an ocean current. Reputed as an airhead, and then reputed as a fake airhead, I left high school with fear in my step (ahhh-change!) and relief at leaving behind people I didn't like.
17 years later, gulp, I have discoverd that I am like an environmental lightbulb. Ironic since my mom's maiden name is Greene-environmentalism/green-get it? When you turn on an environmental lightbulb, they are dim. Much dimmer than a regular light bulb. But if you give it time, it becomes very bright and just as good as the regular, wasteful bulb. That is me. I am on, and something is going on inside, but give me a few minutes to digest and catch up and all will be good. I wish I had known this sooner-I may not have changed my actions but I wouldn't have gotten as frustrated with them either.
So if you are talking to me and I like blank, just give the lightbulb a chance to get going. Unless it is early morning and then there is no hope. I am not a morning person-if it is before 10:00a, talk to me later. And don't use the fact my eyelids are open. It isn't a good indicator.